“The best way to ruin your life is to think you have to have it all together.”
You could say I have an awful fear of fear. A bunch of my younger life was spent missing out on awesome opportunities, because I was too stuck in my little comfort zone to try anything a bit daring.
After high school, God really opened my eyes to how much I let fear dictate my choices. From that point on, I promised Him and myself that I would live life to the absolute FULLEST by letting God direct my life. Since then, He’s planted these big dreams in my heart–to travel as a motivational speaker, be a family counselor, become an author of inspirational books, lead congregations into His presence through worship, raise a family of world-changers, & some other stuff too, but those are my “biggies.”
I mean, He created all of freakin existence, so why not dare to actually BELIEVE Him when He says that through Him ALL things are possible?
Gosh, I get so excited thinking about how cool He is haha.
Anywho, I’m in this awk “waiting” stage of my life, though. I’m still in college; my part-time job is just a means to pay my way through school; I haven’t fallen in love yet; I’m not currently getting many speaking or singing opportunities; I still feel like I’m meant to be living in Sacramento (why are there no beaches here?!); and my phone screen just cracked and my contract isn’t up until December.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my life. I have so much to be thankful for. Still sometimes I have those moments, though, where I’m like, wellllll I’d better get cozy on the corner of 11th & K where I’ll be living the rest of my life as a bum in a box!
Kay, that’s a little dramatic, but still.
That fear starts to creep in again…“Am I not being ambitious or determined enough?” “What if I’m actually not meant to accomplish these dreams?” “Did I hear God wrong?” “What if I actually never get married?”
“What if…what if…what if…”
“Humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.”
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
“Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.”
Every life chapter is just as important as the next. I could easily wish away these “waiting” years, but that’d be like wishing away the very foundation of all I’ll do in the future.
It’s in the waiting that the tough lessons are learned, that pride is broken down, confidence is built, and that complete dependency on God is formed.
Muscle takes PERSEVERANCE to be built.
Healthy roots take TIME to grow.
Palm trees get STRONGER through STORMS.
A treacherous hike must be conquered before experiencing the breathtaking mountaintop view.
Brows have to grow in awfully before the European Wax lady can shape them perfectly.
Basically, this beautiful life is a process.
If you want to have a solid future, you’ve gotta build a firm foundation.
Through everything, I’ve learned that I am a complete mess without letting the Creator of everything guide me. As impatient or “stuck” as I may feel sometimes, I know I don’t actually have to fret because this is all for a purpose. I can rest easy because I know that with God, life’s one big win-win situation.
He works ALL things together for the good of those who love Him. So long as we stay committed to God’s guidance, and working hard, He’s going to lead us down the best path for us. And if worse comes to worst, this life is like a “short vapor,” and soon we’ll be partying for all of eternity in perfect Heaven.
So, friend, I just want to encourage you by saying, you feel lost too? You’re not alone! Young adult life can be the most frustrating, messy, confusing time of your life…and if that’s the case, then you’re probably doing it right. You’re figuring out who are, what role you play in this world, and through trial-and-error, you’re learning to hit every curveball life throws at you.
You don’t have it all figured out, and you’re not meant to.
God’s got you. You’re a total champ. Just enjoy the ride.
Anything worth achieving requires a challenging process. Embrace it, learn from it, LOVE it. Today is a gift. Our time is coming, & our time is also now.
Praying blessings over your life!