“The best way to ruin your life is to think you have to have it all together.”


You could say I have an awful fear of fear. A bunch of my younger life was spent missing out on awesome opportunities, because I was too stuck in my little comfort zone to try anything a bit daring.

After high school, God really opened my eyes to how much I let fear dictate my choices. From that point on, I promised Him and myself that I would live life to the absolute FULLEST by letting God direct my life. Since then, He’s planted these big dreams in my heart–to travel as a motivational speaker, be a family counselor, become an author of inspirational books, lead congregations into His presence through worship, raise a family of world-changers, & some other stuff too, but those are my “biggies.”

I mean, He created all of freakin existence, so why not dare to actually BELIEVE Him when He says that through Him ALL things are possible?

Gosh, I get so excited thinking about how cool He is haha.

Anywho, I’m in this awk “waiting” stage of my life, though. I’m still in college; my part-time job is just a means to pay my way through school; I haven’t fallen in love yet; I’m not currently getting many speaking or singing opportunities; I still feel like I’m meant to be living in Sacramento (why are there no beaches here?!); and my phone screen just cracked and my contract isn’t up until December.

Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my life. I have so much to be thankful for. Still sometimes I have those moments, though, where I’m like, wellllll I’d better get cozy on the corner of 11th & K where I’ll be living the rest of my life as a bum in a box!

Kay, that’s a little dramatic, but still.

That fear starts to creep in again…“Am I not being ambitious or determined enough?” “What if I’m actually not meant to accomplish these dreams?” “Did I hear God wrong?” “What if I actually never get married?”
“What if…what if…what if…”

“Humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.”
Proverbs 16:9

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5-6

“Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.”
Romans 12:12

Every life chapter is just as important as the next. I could easily wish away these “waiting” years, but that’d be like wishing away the very foundation of all I’ll do in the future.

It’s in the waiting that the tough lessons are learned, that pride is broken down, confidence is built, and that complete dependency on God is formed.

Muscle takes PERSEVERANCE to be built.

Healthy roots take TIME to grow.

Palm trees get STRONGER through STORMS.

A treacherous hike must be conquered before experiencing the breathtaking mountaintop view.

Brows have to grow in awfully before the European Wax lady can shape them perfectly.

Basically, this beautiful life is a process.

If you want to have a solid future, you’ve gotta build a firm foundation.

Through everything, I’ve learned that I am a complete mess without letting the Creator of everything guide me. As impatient or “stuck” as I may feel sometimes, I know I don’t actually have to fret because this is all for a purpose. I can rest easy because I know that with God, life’s one big win-win situation.

He works ALL things together for the good of those who love Him. So long as we stay committed to God’s guidance, and working hard, He’s going to lead us down the best path for us. And if worse comes to worst, this life is like a “short vapor,” and soon we’ll be partying for all of eternity in perfect Heaven.

So, friend, I just want to encourage you by saying, you feel lost too? You’re not alone! Young adult life can be the most frustrating, messy, confusing time of your life…and if that’s the case, then you’re probably doing it right. You’re figuring out who are, what role you play in this world, and through trial-and-error, you’re learning to hit every curveball life throws at you.

You don’t have it all figured out, and you’re not meant to.

God’s got you. You’re a total champ. Just enjoy the ride.

Anything worth achieving requires a challenging process. Embrace it, learn from it, LOVE it. Today is a gift. Our time is coming, & our time is also now.

Praying blessings over your life!


“What would your life look like without any fear?”

That was the slogan of a life-changing conference I went to back in 2013. That question alone FOREVER changed the way I view life and dared me to dream as BIG as possible. I realized that we all are born with God-given talents and passions that He wants to maximize to make this world a better place.

It was then that my wild dreams of offering hope to the world on a grand scale were born. I want nothing more than to spend my life inspiring others through traveling & speaking, becoming a published author, and doing all I can to leave a lasting mark on the world, in appreciation for all God’s done for me. It’s what led me to create this little “Dose of Hope” personal brand, I guess you could call it, in the first place.

But after a little over a year of praying, trusting, working towards these dreams, and feeling like I haven’t made much progress, I started to question them. Did God really tell me to go after these dreams? Was I being naive, or even arrogant, thinking I was made to do such things? Is it time to settle and accept the fact that I may never see these heart’s desires come true?

Maybe you’re questioning your dreams, so I wrote this for you.

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Maybe you were crazy for thinking you could accomplish great things. You had such big dreams when you were younger. You felt invincible. Like anything was possible. Ignorance really was bliss, you finally admit, as you hang your head in defeat.

Are your dreams worth all the effort still? You’re older now and the world’s tried to show you who’s boss;
That the seemingly impossible may be just that–impossible.

Your heart breaks at the thought of living a typical, routine life of mediocrity; But maybe that’s just how life goes.
I mean afterall, only a few make history…

Only a few make history.

Maybe because everyone else fell victim to defeat’s lies, chose to bow at the foot of fear, chose to give up when things got tough and required some painful perseverance.

Maybe no one told them that dreams aren’t meant to be caged up in your mind. Maybe they didn’t realize all the wild, world-changing, history-making, legacy-leaving things they were capable of. Not just capable of, but BORN to make reality.
Maybe no one told them the Creator of everything was on their side;
Maybe that was too crazy of a thought to believe.
But that’s not you.

“Average” does not describe you.
You treasure, you.
You’re hearing the truth now.
You’re meant to master obstacles,
to be refined through challenges,
to patiently trust that God will open the right doors…
at the RIGHT time.

You’re meant to conquer fears, to be rebuilt when you feel you’ve been torn down. To reach, to try, to smile. To soar. To excel.
To throw “impossible” to the wind, shift your eyes from your rearview, and party because your future is SO bright!

Rise up.
Step out.
Dare to dream again.

That dream you were about to give up on?
This is that nudge you wanted.
This is that voice telling you it’s still meant to be.

This is your sign to go for it.


Dear God,
I pray for anyone that needs revived passion, myself included; anyone that needs to be reminded that they were born for a meaningful purpose, whether they know you yet or not.

I pray for strength, the determination to overcome fear, the nudge outside of comfort zones, and the boldness to do whatever it takes to make the wildest of dreams intertwine with reality. I pray for increased faith when things don’t seem to be working out, and confidence in the fact that you will use the unique gifts and passions you’ve embedded into every human’s heart for things greater than we could ever imagine.

I pray for HUGE blessings over anyone who may be reading this!
Thanks, God. Love you so much.

“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen”
Ephesians 3:20

“I pray that out of His glorious riches may He strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s Holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge–that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”
Ephesians 3:16-19

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”
Hebrews 11:1

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE.”
Jeremiah 29:11


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I’ve been addicted to busy-ness and I realized it was to avoid a subconscious fear of feeling lonely…Do you do this too?

New Years Eve, I had my sparkly dress and 4 inch heels all picked out for a party I was going to go to with my best friend.

Honestly, I didn’t even want to go anymore when it was time to get ready. I was SO exhausted from my long day, and the thought of driving 45 minutes with sleepy eyes and drunk drivers on the road did not sound appealing.

But the thought of scrolling through everyone else’s dazzling festivities while I sat around at home doing nothing sounded even worse. (Ew at what social media has done to us, btw!)

As I was about to get ready, my friend called (also exhausted from her long day & evening) and asked if I wanted to just come over and watch movies instead.

Hallelujah. Relieved, I changed into sweats, picked up a bottle of sparkling cider and a tub of Häagen-Dazs and headed to her house where we curled up, watched movies, then talked about life and the dreams God’s placed in our hearts for 2015.

I traded in what would’ve been another night out in a dress and heels for a relaxed night in with a dear friend. This was so symbolic of an important theme I want to work on in this new year.

I spent so much of 2014 addicted to extravagant fun, always being on-the-go, and making sure I constantly had a packed schedule. Why?

Deep down, I never wanted to face my biggest fear–feeling alone.

I am such a people person. I love nothing more than being with people, whether they’re great friends or new strangers. And on the flip side, I feel almost useless, unimportant, and like I’m wasting precious moments of my life when I’m hanging out at home, with nowhere to go, and nothing to do. It’s like I’ve become afraid of down time–I get so restless; it drives me insane.

So instead of feeling that, I make plans. School, work, ministry, social things, and whatever else I feel like doing to the point of exhaustion–packing many days full so that I feel like my life is significant.

But I’m learning that “being busy” is not the equivalent of living a “full life.” Our importance as individuals and the busy-ness of our schedules have nothing to do with each other.

Why is having no spare time so glamorous in our society, anyway?

We’re all exhausted! No one has time to sit in silence and just BE. We’re so busy trying to create lavish moments so we can post them and convince everyone and ourselves that our lives are so cool.

And most importantly, I had been limiting the depth of the sweet and powerful voice of God in my life. Sure, I’m constantly praying about stuff throughout my day and I read Scripture and devotionals nightly. But this dutiful checklist we have as Christians doesn’t begin to scratch the surface of all that He wants to reveal to us.

When was the last time I kept a whole day open, just to lose track of time in His presence and let His Spirit guide me wherever?

In Luke 2, a prophet, Anna, is mentioned. She spoke of the birth of Jesus that was to come in the future…Like, how important is that?! It says that she “…NEVER left the temple but worshiped NIGHT AND DAY, fasting and praying. ‭
Luke‬ ‭2‬:‭37‬

Ummm, what? It’s no wonder she heard God so clearly; she literally spent ALL of her time with Him!

Us Americans are  so crazy busy, driving here and there, doing this and that, checking our phones whenever we have a spare moment.  I’m not saying to lock ourselves up and become hermits (omg, no way!), but maybe a life where we pause long enough to breathe is the lifestyle we were designed to live.


My friend, Megan, and I had a laid-back first day of 2015 with no real agenda. I almost felt guilty, at first, for not utilizing our day off to go do something extravagant, like a spontaneous trip to the ocean or something.

But as hours passed in Bloom Coffee & Tea, and we talked about true matters of the heart…as our conversations left us better people than we were yesterday, I realized that this slow-paced day was more extravagant and life-changing than any crazy plans we could have made.

Care to join me in this challenge of renewal?

Let’s start 2015 with a fresh mindset. Let’s stop and smell the roses this year, and every year after that. Here’s to refocusing on the true Purpose of this short life. Here’s to not being afraid of rest; not being afraid of alone time; and instead of just enduring it, LOVING it.

Praying that this will be the BEST year of your life so far!


21’s a magical age, filled with adventure, successes, frustrations, growth, uncertainty, and having endless possibilities in front of you. It’s that age where you’ve got to start acting more adult-like, paying more bills, and begin really getting your stuff together; but you’re also young enough to still do totally crazy, spontaneous things and have it be okay.

With it being my last week as a 21 year-old, I’ve compiled a list of 21 little epiphanies I’ve had this past year.

1. Embrace that life will never be perfect. – Love life anyway.

2. Your life = Your own timeline – What everyone else is doing is irrelevant to your life path. So what if it’s taking you longer than expected to finish college, or if statistics say the average marriage age is 28? There is no one right or wrong set timeline in life. God’s timing is different for everyone, so don’t even stress!

3. When you’ve found an answer-your-call-in-the-middle-of-the-night, there-in-the-good-times-and-bad, makes-you-laugh-til-you’ve-got-a-six-pack, then-gets-dessert-with-you-at-2-am, lovingly honest, loyal, prayerful, iron-sharpens-iron kind of friend…TREASURE them with everything you’ve got! These rare gems are the friends your kids will call “auntie”/”uncle” someday.

4. Wherever you are, be all there. – Don’t waste moments living in past ones, worrying about future ones, or living vicariously through others’ on your social media feed. Live and experience EVERY moment FULLY. Be in love with the here & now.

5. If it’s raining, blast your music and drive with the moonroof open for a little bit. – Trust me on this one.

6. Alone time with God is the source of life. – Hands down, most important thing. It’s in prayer and through His Word that He’ll speak to your heart, reveal his incredible plans for your life, guide you through each day, comfort you, show you what real love looks like…I could go on forever. A relationship with Him is why we exist.

7. Dance! – In a tasteful way. Who cares what you look like? It’s fun and liberating.

8. Class goes a long way. – To the women who are strong, polite, selfless, ambitious, kind, intelligent, know who they are, and what they deserve…To the women who keep their assets clothed to let their dignity shine, who still believe in playing a little hard-to-get, who walk with confidence and grace…cheers to you! Honestly, dressing skimpy, throwing ourselves at guys, and being sloppy drunk are so cliché. Ladies, we’re better than that!

9. This is the time to figure out who you are and who you want to become. – What are you passionate about? Where do you want to travel to? Where do you want to live? What kind of personality do you have? This is a time to establish yourself; to get an idea of the direction you want to head in; to build a firm foundation of independence, and to develop yourself into someone you’ll be proud to be for the rest of your life.

10. Life’s not just about the destination, but the process of getting there.

11. Each person is like a treasure chest waiting to be opened. – We’re all human. Everyone we come in contact with has a unique story, heart full of ideas, and set of perspectives to share. Have REAL conversations with friends, the people at work, the person sitting next to you in class, that stranger waiting behind you in line…why not?

12. Some days you’ll feel like this is the most social time of your life, other days it’ll feel like the loneliest, and that is OKAY.

13. Worrying is a waste of time.

14. Take LOTS of pictures.

15. Comparison kills – You’re a masterpiece. You’re on your own life path. You’re gifted with your own unique abilities, passions, appearance, personality, and purpose. Focusing on others causes you to miss out on what’s right in front of you. Your Creator doesn’t compare you to anyone else, so why should you?

16. Hold out for your soulmate. – Love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.

17. Spontaneous trips to wherever are good for the soul.

18. When in doubt, go out. – We all have those nights…”Like half of me wants to go to that [event/hangout/whatever], but the other half wants to hang out on my couch.” GO OUT. You’ll remember great times with people, not the nights you got extra sleep.

19. Be proactive. – Being an adult takes initiative. Opportunities don’t typically fall into your lap. Make sure you’re taking the right classes, apply for that job you want, initiate new friendships, save money, take steps toward making your dreams reality.

20. Inspire everyone around you. – Leave each person better than they were before crossing your path.

21. You’re either living for the weekend, or living for a purpose. – You can either be that 21 year-old who is partying their life away, spending most nights drunk, and constantly chasing “fun.” Or you can be that 21 year-old who is driven, ambitious, focused on making big dreams a reality, and making a lasting impact on the world. We’re all equipped with the same amount of time and capacity to make the world a better place; don’t waste that power, maximize it.

22. Life is waiting outside the confines of your comfort zone. – If you never try, you’ll never know. Dreaming seemingly impossible dreams reflects an incredible amount of faith in God’s limitless power. Fear has no right to stand in the way of what could possibly be the best decision of your life.

Okay, so there were 22, bonus! This has truly been an incredible year. I pray that whatever age you are, you’re enjoying your life to the absolute fullest. Praying blessings over anyone who may be reading this!

Well, 21, you did me well. Here’s to a new year of feelin’ twentytwooo (cue Taylor Swift)!


Heartbroken, disillusioned, confused, and experiencing about a dozen other emotions at the time, I wrote this piece back in September of 2013, about a month after ending a 3 year relationship with a great guy. I recently read over it again, edited some parts, and felt like it’d be encouraging to share, as we all face obstacles at one time or another. It was one of the most challenging times of my life thus far, but with it, came the most incredible & rewarding growing opportunities of my life that helped shape me into who I am today. Looking back, I can confidently say that hope guides you out of the darker times and into a bright, joyful new season!


September 12, 2013
1:15 am

Hope (noun):
Grounds for believing that something good may happen; A feeling of trust
(Oxford Dictionary).

A pessimistic mind guards up his or her heart because of past hurt, focuses on the problems of today, and makes these circumstances even bigger than the fresh start of tomorrow. An optimistic heart learns from the past, finds joy in today, and is excited for the bright hope in the future.

Life’s a crazy thing, isn’t it? It can all be going smoothly one day, and then BOOM, out of nowhere we’re faced with challenges, obstacles, heartbreak, loneliness, illness, losing a loved one…the list goes on.
Sometimes life just slips the rug out from beneath us, right where we’re standing.

We get tripped up, we fall over, we get knocked down.

Will you give these circumstances the power to keep you down, or will you brush off the dust and get back up again, but stronger this time?

Sometimes life sends you in the complete opposite direction of someone you love. Sometimes the hard thing to do and the right thing are the same. Regardless, I never fully understood depression until I felt it myself through this breakup. There have been tough days, but it’s the refusal to stay down that lifts me back up.

We’re all faced with heartache and hardships at some point, but will you let it control you? Will you let the current challenge be too much to handle, or will you smile because you know that better days are to come?

You see, hope keeps us going. That trust in knowing that everything WILL work out for the best. If your heart hurts, time will heal it. If today seems tough, put a smile on and keep fighting. Find blessings in each day, and know that tomorrow’s gifts far outweigh today’s challenges.

“We know that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
Romans 8:28